I know, I know, you aren't supposed to care. That is the PC answer, isn't it? Someone asks you, "Do you want a boy or girl?" and your response is, "Oh, we don't care, we just want a healthy baby".
Well, of course, I want a healthy baby. Who in their right mind wouldn't want a healthy baby?? And, having lost a baby several months ago (via miscarriage), I know how it feels to pray and to know that the priority of all your wants is a healthy baby from day one.
So, while in the depths of my heart, I really don't care what the sex of our baby is and all I really want is a healthy one, the more shallow waters of my heart want a girl. A sweet, chubby baby girl.
My first pregnancy I didn't really ever process what I wanted because Hubs wanted a boy so bad he couldn't see straight. Not kidding. So when we found out it was a girl, his reaction was dissapointment and I cried the entire way home from the doctor. Not because I didn't want a girl, but because he was so sad about it. Then my tears turned from sad tears to angry tears at the way he was acting and we talked about it and he got over it. And, now, of course, he is is totally in love with his daughter.
So I think the first time I kind of wanted a boy for him. And, now, funny as this is, he kind of wants a girl for me. We are truly in love ;) We just really like the idea of sisters and we already have a girl name picked out! For boy names, we got nothin'. Big fat nothin'. Plus, we know (in as much as we can know obviously) that this will not be our last child so there's always a chance for a boy next time.
We have an appointment next week and I hope we find out! It's still really early (I'll be 15 weeks next week), but we are praying that Hubs will find out before he deploys, which is right around the corner.
As soon as we get the word, we'll share the exciting news!