Baby Journey Week 10

Baby Growth: My baby is now the size of a kumquat.  Did I know what that was?  Um, definitely not.  I just googled it.  You should too!  It's a fruit that is about an inch long.

Symptoms: I am no longer sick to my stomach all day long.  That was awful and I am so glad it has passed.  I still get sleepy throughout the day, but not as bad as a couple of weeks ago.  I go to bed every night by 10pm which is very early for me.  And, although I love doing stuff during the day because it breaks up the monotony, it also wears me out.  I need to eat every couple hours or I get really weak and CRANKY.  Oh my, it is bad.  I am still getting motion sickness when I swing on the swings with Autumn.  Crazy symptom that one!  Peeing all the time.  My pants are starting to get tight :(

Cravings: Nada.  Which is kind of a bummer because I think food cravings are really fun.  I have fond memories of my husband making late night runs for my demanding taste buds with my first pregnancy!

What I Miss:  Energy.  I miss that more than anything.  A flat (let's get real and say "flat-ish") stomach. I miss sleeping through the night and sleeping comfortably.  I mean, I'm barely showing, but I already can't get comfortable at night!

Best Pregnancy Moment of the Week:  We are in Germany and they do ultrasounds every visit so I got to see our baby this week which now actually looks like a baby!  That never gets old.  It is so amazing to see this little person with arms and legs moving around in your belly and you can't even feel it.  I love it!

Questions/Concerns:  Oh, let me tell you , I have a TON of these.  Not for the doctor necessarily, but for God.  Ha!  It's true.  The main one being "What are you going to send us?"  and "Where am I going to have this baby?" We don't know.  We will probably either be in Germany, Oklahoma, or Arizona but none of those are definite.  I mean, can you believe how crazy my life is?  This will be the THIRD baby I have had in an "unstable" situation.  THIRD!  I mean, don't you think God could cut me a little slack in the faith department?!  I'm totally kidding, but sometimes I do feel like saying, "Ok, I went along with #1 & #2...can you please give me a settled life for #3?"  It's not easy, but apparently God thinks I can handle all this transition so I just go along with it.

Goals for Next Week:  Fold my piles and piles of clean laundry AND get it put away.  Clean the upstairs bathroom.

I still don't want to find out what we are having, but Chris does so we will see what happens there.  He will probably win since I cave so easily.  We both think it's a girl although we don't really care one way or the other.  The reason we think it's a girl is because of how sick I was in the beginning.  I was the same way with Autumn and with Caleb I wasn't sick at all (not even a little bit!).  We have a girl name picked out, but no clue for a boy.  Funny story: I was chalking with Autumn and I decorated a brick for Autumn and Caleb and one for our girl name and Autumn came over and scribbled out the girl name one.  She can't read and doesn't even know all her letters so it was totally a coincidence, but I took that as a sign from God to not count our eggs before they hatch!  As in, it very well might be another boy!  I will be totally happy with either.

Baby Journey-Week 23

Soooo....I started these with my second pregnancy.  And then I miscarried.   And when I got pregnant again, we didn't tell anyone for a long time and then I time just slipped away.  But, hey, better late than never, right?


We have a mango! What a cute analogy.  Well, not really an analogy, but what a cute something.

The Babe: He can hear noises which is great because he will know the sounds of my voice and definitely Baby Girl's voice too!  She talks waaaay more than me and is waaaay louder :)  Also, last night, I could physically see him moving inside of me!  Totally weird.  But nice too.

Here is what I pretty much look like now. (Picture taken a week ago & that's me on the left)

Just so you don't think we're weird, we are both pregnant and purposely holding our preggo bellies together :) I was 22 weeks and she was 18 weeks.  I think.

Symptoms:  Ummm, not much.  I'm physically getting uncomfortable when sleeping or sitting on the ground.  I get out of breathe easily.  It is also getting hard for me to lower Baby Girl into her crib.  Not sure what I'm going to do about that.

Weight:  No idea.  Sorry.  I have an appointment tomorrow and maybe I'll see then how much I've gained.  I think 3 weeks ago I had gained 12 pounds, but that seems like a lot! I'm probably wrong. 

Name: We had a name and we told everyone, but now we're not sure again.  Sheesh.  Back to square one!

What I Miss:  My husband.  Ok, ok, for real, what I miss from pre-preggo days is my not huge belly and my extensive lung capacity and being able to get off the floor in 1 second flat. 

Best Pregnancy Moment this week: Hmmm...I don't know.  Someone at the Farmer's Market said when my husband came back things would be different and she was referencing my belly and she was the first person to notice I was pregnant (and say something) that didn't already know so that was cool.  

Questions/Concerns: I watched this documentary called "The Business of Being Born" and it really freaked me out.  So I can't wait to meet my MD (no, I still haven't met her yet!) and ask about C-sections, pitocin, and epidurals.  I've also been having some sharp pains (not cramps) that I want to make sure are normal. 

Ok, that's all I got! 

Odds & Ends

So sorry it's been so long since I last posted.  Our Internet was off for almost 4 weeks so at least I have an excuse!

I have been feeling down today.   We miscarried our baby last week so I'm sure it has something to do with that.  I am still lonely too.  I would think I would get used to the solitude, but I haven't.  I have Internet now which means I'm back on Facebook and getting emails and we even have a phone that calls America for free, but that just doesn't cut it.  Talking to someone on the phone or even Skyping with someone is not the same thing as having people over for dinner or going to grab a Starbucks.  I miss person to person interaction.  We have also not found a church :(  There aren't a lot of English speaking options over here obviously and the ones we have visited have been alright, but we miss our church back home.  The funny thing is when we attended our church back home we weren't even that involved.  Plus, Baby Girl is dealing with separation anxiety and while I don't mind letting her cry a bit, I feel bad for the nursery workers having to deal with her.  She won't even play on the floor in the nursery...someone has to hold her the entire church service so it makes me not even want to take her.  It's not her fault.  Her entire life has been spent in temporary places where her mommy has no friends and therefore no one to watch her so she is with me 24/7.  I would love to leave her with someone so me and Hubby can go out to eat, but that just isn't an option.  So of course she is attached to me, but it's not her fault.  It's not really my fault either.  6 months in Oklahoma with a newborn and 3 months in Germany with an infant doesn't exactly lend itself to me being a social butterfly.

Plus, the one person who is here for me (Hubby) is mad at me right now so I feel extra alone.  He's at work anyway.  Don't know when I'll see him again. 

I have to mention that I have made one friend here.  And she has really been wonderful.  When I have had to do things that were not baby friendly, she has always watched Baby Girl for me willlingly and happily.  Last week when we found out about the baby she brought us two separate meals and took Baby Girl while we went to the hospital.  I am very grateful for her.  And I hear from my mom that another friend (whom I haven't met yet...well, not in person, but we have been emailing) will be here on Friday.  She also has a daughter so I'm excited to meet them and maybe have some playdates!  Baby playdates sound like fun to me :)  I'm such a mom...and I love it :)

Well, that's about as much of an update as I can give you.  I promise I won't let 4 weeks go by again without posting!

Baby Journey-week 6

Symptoms:  Nothing new really.  I have been sleeping through the night again, but I thought I might upchuck in the shower the other day.  I didn't though :)  I haven't been so sleepy in the afternoons.  Weird, huh?  I had heartburn a couple of nights last week.  My appetite has decreased if anything.  Sometimes I just don't feel like eating.  My pregnancy nose is still going strong. 


Emotions:  Definitely emotional!  I cry or "tear up" over anything remotely sad.  I cried over that political shooting in Arizona, I cried over a blog post I read about the number of abortions in New York, I cry when looking at pictures of nurseries, I cry when I think about Hubby not being with me for the birth, and I cry when I get homesick.  I haven't been grumpy anymore so that's really good.  Some days I am pretty stressed, some days I am fine, but that's not really because I'm pregnant...that's because my life is in a very transitional period right now (thank you army). 


Doctor's Appointments, etc.:  Well, I went & peed in a cup for the army...turns out I'm pregnant! :)  Then, on Friday I had to drive Hubby to work (with Baby Girl of course) so I could keep the car & then I had mess up Baby Girl's naps to drive back to post for an "appointment" which turned out to be "pick up this pack of paper".  It took about 3 mins.  Thank you army!  On Wednesday I asked my friend to watch Baby Girl so I can go to a class called "Having a baby in Germany" or something like that even though I will be having my baby in America.  THEN, finally after 3 trips to post, I will get to actually go to my first doctor's appointment...on my birthday!  Sheesh-everything is so much more complicated across the pond!


The Baby: Dun-du-du-dun....we have a lentil!!

My Baby Journey

I was inspired by Kathryn over at Singing Through the Rain to document my baby journey and I am really excited about it!  My intention is to update weekly, but we'll see how that goes... :)


The Plan:  Back in October me & Hubby found out his deployment was being moved up 4 months earlier than we had first been told.  We were originally going to start trying when Baby Girl turned one.  (I write that with a knowing grin because I had baby fever since Baby Girl was about 3 months old and definitely wanted to try sooner but due to "logical" reasons, we were going to wait).  Well, when we found out about deployment we said we would start trying in January.  I had an IUD in at the time & wanted it out so my body could have some time to adjust before we started trying.  The problem was that my doctor was 1800 miles away.  So we tried to find a local one to no avail.  We had to get permission from the army & then find a doctor that took Tricare & had an open slot.  We had basically given up & were going to wait until we got to Germany.  Well, I saw the number of one of the doctor's I had called that had been closed when I called.  I called the number & yes, they took Tricare & yes, they had an open slot for the one day that we were able to go!  Then we got to Germany & I am telling you, my baby fever would not go away.  So one night me & Hubby prayed about it & we really gave it to God.  For my part, it was hard because I thought I wanted a baby no matter what God said.  I finally was able to give it to God & told Him that if He wanted us to wait, then I would be obedient.  Well, both me & Hubby felt like God was giving us the green light to start trying so we did.


Finding Out:  We were going to wait until Christmas morning to take the test, but we couldn't!  We bought one of those early pregnancy tests & we saw a faint pink line.  I was estatic and nervous.  Estatic because I knew it meant I was probably pregnant, but nervous because it was so faint.  We could see it, but barely.  I was still physically shaking with joy though.  I made Hubby feel my heart & it was pounding out of control!  We went ahead & told Baby Girl who didn't respond much :)  Then we re-took it on Christmas morning & it was dark pink!  We were SO VERY VERY VERY VERY happy!!  We told our parents that evening via Skype. 


Symptoms: So far, sleepiness in the late afternoon (but nothing like with Baby Girl-maybe because I'm not working?), waking up once a night to "make water", sweet things turn my stomach, when I get hungry I turn into a grouch (that's a new one), and my pregnancy nose is back! I can smell you fom a mile away! :)


Emotions:  I am first of all, so very thankful to God for granting me the priviledge of being pregnant again.  It is an honor to house one of His amazing creations.  I am overwhelmed by His goodness when I think about being pregnant.  This pregnancy is so different for me than my first.  With Baby Girl, I did not enjoy being pregnant.  I actually freaked out shortly after we got pregnant & did not come to peace with my pregnancy until the very end.  I did not realize that a miracle was happening inside of me.  I feel like I "wasted" it by being selfish & immature & just plain clueless.  This time I am going to cherish every second & never take for granted a healthy baby.  After thankful, the next emotion I feel is EXCITED!  Anytime I need a pick me up I just look at my preggo stick (the home kit) & I can't help by smile & giggle!   

The baby: Last week, it was the size of a poppy seed

This week it is the size of a sesame seed! 

I love my little baby sesame seed!!

*I got those photos from Babycenter.com  It is an awesome website if you have kiddos!