Bible Geek

I would like to become a Bible Geek. Tis true. I want to start a Bible Geek Club & have Bible Geek friends. I want to get together with these Bible Geek friends & talk about whatever book of the Bible we want to & talk about different theories & commentaries & what words mean & what it means for our lives presently. I don't want to take the Bible away from my heart & put it only in my brain or anything, I just want to study it more & be a geek about it. You know, like POUR over it & ABSORB it. My Bible reading is mostly very surface-y (hey-it's cool to make up words) & I'm tired of it! So my first step in this process is deciding to become a Bible Geek: check. Not sure what the next step is...maybe enlisting another person who would like to become a Bible Geek with me. Hmmm, this may be harder than I thought.

quite a memorable turkey day :)

big family? noooo. a day of cooking? noooo. a table full of food? noooo. leftovers? noooo.
this year, for the first time ever, i ate my thanksgiving meal in a restaurant! my sweet parents came up to hton (does anyone actually know i live here?? because everytime i talk to a friend not from here, they say "where do you live again?"). well, they came up & brought me tons of goodies & tons of food. it felt like a mini-christmas :) sweet people. then, we went to cracker barrel & had a perfect plateful of food. no stomach aches or unbuttoning my pants this year. it was quite enjoyable. i wasn't too excited about it at first because i didn't think it was thanksgiving-ish, but i found out that LOTS of people go to cracker barrel on turkey day! it was packed, so then i felt better :) i'm weird, i know. then i took them to the hospital so they could see where i work. after that we ran around & spent a little more money & ended up at the boyfriend's for a christmas movie & sweet potatoe pie (that i did not make!). we watched "christmas with the cranks". it is a really good movie if anyone likes christmas movies. then we stayed up late last night & now we are getting ready to make a big breakfast before they head back to k-town. i am glad they could come & spend this holiday with me. that's what matters :)

things are supposed to be ok

it's true. things are supposed to be ok. i am supposed to be happy & content & life is supposed to be stable by now. i have an apartment & a cat for goodness' sake! i work at a respectable place of employment with great benefits & pretty good pay. i have a wonderful boyfriend who loves me & cares so much about my wellfare. so what is wrong? why aren't things ok? why do i still miss slovakia & my life there so much? why can i cry at any given moment if i dwell on it for just a minute too long? why am i still dealing with daily sadness & grieving over my losses? it's been 4 months! i am moving on with my life, but my heart is stuck. not every day do i feel the burderns of life outside of slovakia, but it's an overall issue. i long to be happy in hton. it is my heart's desire that i be content with the portion the lord has given me. but for some reason, i'm not. & i don't even want to get into what my life with God is like. it's hot & cold & luke-warm & up & down. i demand intimacy & then i ignore him. it's like nothing i have ever experienced since i have become his child. i have had rebellious streaks, sure, but this is a prolonged complacency that is weighing me down in every area of my life. i keep thinking "life will be better when...". life will be better when i have my own apartment. life will be better when my cat comes to live with me. life will be better when i don't have to wait tables anymore. life will be better when i have a real job with a real paycheck. been there, done that & i still don't feel ok! so like my sweet lisa said in her blog (http://lnkauffman.blogspot.com/) it just helps to get this junk out of me & into words. so that's what i did.

gotta wear shades

wow. has it really been months since i wrote on here!? seriously slacking. i have been experiencing one of my most fried times ever. i say fried not to refer to drug use but emotional, mental, & spiritual exhaustion. the good news is is that i am on the down slope (or is it up slope? what i mean is it's getting better).
i also have not had internet so that makes updating blogs somewhat difficult :)
gosh, i'm not even sure what to write about.
today, let me tell you about my day today. weeellll, i woke up early this morning to meet the cable guy & cook breakfast for my new (well, not so new anymore) beau because my mother watches too much CSI & was afraid that the cable guy would hurt me. then i had a lovely caramel latte with dear karole. after that, i talked to andrea & lisa online which made me miss slovakia so much i cried (but just a little bit...which these days "just a little bit" is quite an improvement). then i went to the dreaded logan's roadhouse to wait tables. lucky for me, it was the easiest friday night i have ever worked & i made the most money i have ever made on a friday (how is that possible??). now i am sitting on my blue couch starving (but also too lazy to make anything to eat) & my feet hurt. so, THAT is what i did today.
today was a good day.
but i'm telling you what, my future is bright! i just got not one, but two new jobs, i only have a few more shifts left at logans, i have an amazing boyfriend who also happens to be one of my best friends, i have internet in my apartment, my baby cat lives with me now, & it's the very beginning of the magical holiday season! (& no, i dont care if you call me a sap :p)
a picture? well...i suppose if you insist...

WEST VIRGINIA & KENTUCKY

west virginia: wild, wonderful...kind of like the people that live here ;-)

well, the very best places to visit in west virginia are taylor books, ritter park, top spot (laundry mat/diner:) i am serious), & the hayes palace.
the very best things to do in west virginia are riding a 4-wheeler, seeing old friends & making new ones, eating delicious pancakes made by a pro ;), & ordering pizza that only girls will eat.
& the very best compliment to receive in west virginia is "i like your teeth"-(really!!)

i can't wait till i can return!


so now i am technically cheating, but i had to squish west virginia with kentucky because i am such a busy(& lazy) girl!
kentucky was awesome. i saw my old friend fancy & met her roommate & new beau. we went & saw lady in the water & ate indian food which made me think of my old roommate poonam :)
i created some memories & caught up with one of the most important people in my life (albeit different ;) if you know me & you know fancy, you know what i mean).

anyway, fun fun fun. i should be returning to kentucky again hopefully before 2006 runs out!